Goodbyes.

I knew 4 mths would fly by just like that, I just knew it!

So I'm off, back to London. This'll be my last post at least for awhile til I get Internet in London. No words can really sum up how I feel other than 4 mths was really not enough especially when loads of things happen in the last few days. Sigh, Murphy there kicking me in the butt.

Now that I think about it, I will be back pretty soon - even sooner if I decide to be a wuss and come back in Dec. It's just the turn of the year that makes it seem soooo damnnn looong moooore.

Til I get internet and my life back, take care Malaysia. I'll see you soon :)

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Gossip Girl!

Gossip Girl is back! After a disappointing first episode (thanks to Serena VDW), episode 2 picks the pace up and it feels just like the good ol days. Not to mention Chuck Bass is back and with a super hot new hairdo. Heehee.

Random thoughts so far (spoilers!):


1. Someone should throw a shoe at Serena.

2. Chuck and Blair can only have 2 scenes together and still manage to steal the show.

3. Georgina is so hot.

4. Lovechild Scott is creepy.

5. Vanessa is annoying.

6. Did I mention Chuck and Blair?? Who ever said that if they got together it would kill the chemistry?? So much chemistry!

7. It must be odd going on set and seeing your co-star kiss your real-life boyfriend and you kissing your co-star's real-life boyfriend etc. etc.

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Panic Attack.

I knew I shouldn't have gotten too comfy back home. Garrrh. It just hit me that I have less than 2 weeks left and it somehow feels like I haven't done or accomplished anything at all! When I only have a week or so left I suddenly come up with a million different things that I want to do that I can only do here. Just my freakin luck.

Woke up with an uneasy feeling this morning, the kind where something unpleasant is loomingly imminent and there's no way to escape it. I never liked how time passes so quickly and the concept where we can't make up for lost time. Got a sickening feeling in my stomach and everything I do is tagged as "oh this may be the last time I.. ". Also came to a sickening realisation that while I did do a whole lot this summer, I didn't do many productive things. Le sigh.

While I don't deny that going back to London this time will be exciting, I can't help but already start to miss this place. This weekend I'll be going back to Melaka which means I don't have anymore weekends left here, and weekends are my main family times. Suddenly I wish I hadn't spent so much time in front of the TV or abroad.

But humans are always like that. We want to grasp harder on to things when they're slipping away from us. It's just how we roll.

I think I should do something more productive like start making lists, start packing, start doing something to take control of the situation. Y'know, something other than sit around and mope while watching OTH.

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Happy Birthday Amir B.!

I was going to choose a more decent picture but hey, that was a fun night! Haha. And we all shall have another when we celebrate your birthday properly after Raya!


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OK I'll blog about Azri's bday in the next post. It's Amir B.'s bday I have to blog about it first ok!

Then again, my fingers feel a little itchy la maybe I'll have a bit of a blogging spree. Must be the release of emotions in the prev post. Haha.

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Thoughts On a Tuesday.

Today I found out that when someone you love is hurting, you hurt just as much, if not more.

It's been an emotionally trying couple of weeks for me and I haven't been blogging much because I can't put my thoughts into words and it seems stupid to blog about random stuff just for the sake of it. I have drafts sitting in my dashboard that are probably never going to see the light of day. Sometimes I wish I could just tell someone, word for word, exactly how I feel but most of the time I myself don't know how to explain it all so no one will be able to fully understand so why bother. I realised that looking a-ok is so second nature to me, it's scary. I've also learnt that being helpless is suffocating and we don't choose our family, we just love them for who they are no matter what.


So today I found the plastic bag where I dumped all my UK stuff earlier in the summer when I had just returned home and was relishing so much in the familiarity and love that I just wanted to extract everything related to London and put it someplace where I wouldn't have to see it til I had to. But contrary to my initial thoughts, there is a significant part of me that is excited to go back to London. It's a new year, with new opportunites and new possibilities and I'm actually (weirdly enough) feeling optimistic about it. A big part of me is disappointed at how I wasted away my first year feeling sorry for myself and not giving myself enough credit as a person. The other part just wants to mark it down to life experience and let it be the driving force behind a different me this year. I only have 2 more years to go and tough ones at that. I seriously need to grow up.

I do foresee a very steep climb back to getting used to studying again though. Sigh.


I haven't read a good book in ages. Mostly because I'm lazy and it will take up too much brain power and I'm mentally tired these days. Can you believe it, I've been reading mangas. Which are actually really relaxing because they're hilarious in the most unbelievable ways - another form of creativity, if you will. Good, mindless fun. I've even slowed down on my TVB dramas and all other dramas because they can really be quite mentally taxing. Then again, nowadays only channel surfing and mangas are not mentally taxing for me so go figure.

OK, enough with the doom and gloom,


I have so many random and not-so-random pictures in my Pictures folder! I really should start uploading the ones taken during outings/birthdays/gatherings so other people can steal them huh.

My Puasa-ing buddies and me.

Selamat Berpuasa to all my Malay peeps! This may be a little late but this picture is just too awesome. Totally unplanned, mind you. Haha. It was a fun night and you guys rock socks. Will blog about it in my next post.

(Trying to set a more definite time as to when I will blog about it in hopes that it will drive me to blog about it instead of conveniently forgetting to do it!)

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Melly's 20!

To the one who listens to me rant and whine and rant and whine..and rant, who is my super-awesome partner in Taboo, who is my partner-in-crime for all the silly things we come up with, who loves the Harry Potter series as much as I do, who bitches with me when I need me some bitchin', who loves me when I need me some lovin', who longs for Chuck Bass (like I do), who prefers Blair over Serena any day (like I do), who puts up with my nonsensical-ness and cranky-ness at 5 in the morning (or any other time, for that matter), who helped me through my first year abroad, who knows me best.

To Melly Wuong, on your 20th,

Happy Birthday!

That list could go on but I think I shouldn't blow up your ego anymore. As it is, I have done too much! But since it's your big day, oh well.. ;)

Have a great one, bestie - your best one yet! :)

Hugs and love from Malaysia :D

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