Tell Everybody I'm On My Way.

signs of spring?

I have to stop opening up my 'Create Post' page with gungho intentions to blog and then leaving it there while I go deal with other stuff. Because I seem to be so mentally unstable these days that the will to blog shifts by the minute. I've also become somewhat paranoid and untrusting as if I'm never cautious enough and I'm somehow going to be a victim of sorts. And now I'm paranoid that since I said/typed that out, I will be. I reckon this has a lot to do with being afraid of failure. Make sense? Don't bother. Haha.

It's been a busy two weeks (or at least it feels like) but not very productive. I think it was spent more on worrying about everything that is not falling into place. Well, the good news is (I say this with hesitance) I've settled my storage space needs for the summer, so that's a start. I shall take it step by step from there.

(Pft that's what I keep telling myself but somehow I go on a Google frenzy and find some offer that looks better but actually isn't when it actually might be and.. YEA. Too much information is no good at all. )

And of course the big gaping hole in my supposed-to-be-perfect end of term plans is the curse-worthy accomodation issue which I keep telling myself not to worry about because honestly, I'm in a rut here and there really is nothing I can do.

But you know, when things don't fall into place, it pisses me to no end. Hmpfh.

And to top it all off, I really should not be worrying about all these stuff considering my exams are less than a month away (22 days to be exact) and I should be panicking about the definition of social loafing NOT the fact that I won't have anything to snack on tonight when I get hungry. And trust me, I will get hungry.

Then again, I'm trying to not eat anything after 8pm anymore - a conscious and perhaps futile effort to lose lots of absolutely-not-needed-at-all weight. Although I had dinner at 8.30pm just now. And I have a voucher for Millie's Cookies which is just a 5 minute walk away OK WILLPOWER RIANNE WILLPOWER.